setback

The only setback on wedding preparations in my life is...
aku punya relatonship dengan mak aku.

Sentiasa ada benda nak condemn, sentiasa ada benda yang sengaja nak down-kan aku.
I state it clear...aku tak nak buat kat dewan.
Tetap jugak nak carik dewan!

Dan aku tak paham kenapa dia nak bising aku jumpa FF dan mak dia.
FF beli rumah untuk aku dan dia - bising jugak bila aku nak pergi jenguk rumah tu.
Dan aku tak paham kenapa ada saja komen dia dengan benda2 yang family FF buat.
Or the matter of fact, family orang lain pun!

Sebab tu, bila FF kata aku tak ada komunikasi dengan mak aku...
Aku akan cakap yang lebih baik aku diam daripada bila aku bukak mulut, dia retinya nak condemn aku, kritik aku or cakap2 benda yang aku tak suka, including pasal orang lain.

Obviously, aku mmg la bukan anak favourite mak aku pun.
Dan aku pun bukan la nak sangat jadi favourite.
Just that, at least layan aku as fair as yang lain.
Aku tak macam adik perempuan aku...yang sangatla menyerupai mak aku.
Bergaya, kawan dengan perempuan, popular, jadi usher, masuk tv, bla bla bla
Ok pulak dia dengan adik aku tu.
Boleh pulak dia biar je adik aku tu buat apa dia suka.
Pegi gig la ape la.

Aku lagi suka duduk rumah, duduk depan komputer.
Aku tak layan gig2, tak masuk tv, tak jadi model, tak suka seksi2.
Dan aku takde pun mintak2 nak kereta, nak handphone, nak duduk off campus...
Tapi kenapa salah aku je yang dia nampak?

Arrghhh!!!
Aku memang benci situasi macam ni!
Tapi takpe...aku dah 20 tahun duduk dengan diorg.
3 tahun lagi on/off sebab duduk dekat Uni.
Aku boleh bertahan sikit je lagi.

Tapi dalam masa yang ada ni, aku nak enjoy being single
Woo~! ;)

17 comments

  1. hermm..lebey kurang je kita=p
    [Dan aku pun bukan la nak sangat jadi favourite.
    Just that, at least layan aku as fair as yang lain.] <--
    with you 100% =p

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  2. uits.. jangan emosi. jom kawen cepat. Lagi cepat 'terlepas'! *wink*

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  3. yeah, kawen dekat rumah la seronok. meriah meriah kat rumah. best best.

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  4. Melissa: hey Mel! =) i guess anak2 sulung byk terasa mcm ni...huhuhu

    Hawa: ko xpe la hawa...tak lame lagi dh nak kawen..
    aku ni date xdpt2 lg...tp rancangnye mcm nk dekat jugak...arrgghhh tak ready!!

    chika: betul betul betul...kat umah mmg da bomb lah. tp xtau kalau dpt tak buat kat umah...=(

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  5. for my dear ilynn..
    b'sabar la ye..
    xlama jerk lg dh nk kawin..
    lpas kawin jgn luper cousin u nie tau!!

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  6. Illyn, normal lah nk kawen neh kalo ada salah pendapat ngan mak kita.. maybe dia dalam erti kata lain merisau nk lepaskan anak dia.. hehehe.. so, mcm2 le hal dia nk tego sblom Illyn terlepas dari dia.. just be cool n do respect ur mom.. whatever situation happen to u, sabar je.. dia tetap ur mother.. Ibu mana x sayang anak??

    *camne weken?? fun??

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  7. just take it easy syg..
    u know la, mama mmg camtu.
    just layaaaaaankn je :p

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  8. to my dearest iena & yaya: ade cite terbaru.
    bulan yg korg set tu tak dpt...family FF tak bole...so lame lagi....=(

    siribenmerah: i have been patient and i will continue to do so. it;s just that once in a while, it gets too hard and i feel that burden.
    anyway,weekend was great..penat gileeeeeee. but it was fun and i am happy that i got to be with FF for the whole of 3 consecutive days! =D

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  9. hi adek maness.. single lagikss ghupernyerrr.. salammmz

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  10. alorr...sedey jer cerita kamoo wahai ili..
    takpe2..slow ok.. :)
    jd youngest pun bukannya dpt attention sgt pon~!!
    -lyne-

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  11. giler sedey punye cite. kadang2 aku pun dlm dilemma camni gak.tp,kejap aje. kalau dah mak aku ok balik ngan aku...wa ok gak ar pastu:P

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  12. lynne: yeahh...i think everybody has their own story
    xpe la...setahun lagi sethn je huhuhuhu

    lizz: for me...it's hard la kalo nk baik btol.
    baik ktrg tu bile dh bole berckp tanpa marah2 n tanpa condemn mengondemn hehe

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  13. Ili, i remember my mom told me ur mom bebel kerisauan die about u when my parents came to ur hse! dont worry, her intentions are all pure of motherly. She said she's worried about her "lil" daughter yg dah nak kawin, and the guy's family sangat2 suke kt awk. She did mentioned tak sangka anak2 dah besar, susah nak let go. So kadang2 diorg pk the best for us. At least die ade jugak bising2 psl awk, dari diam je kan?
    And Im sure die terasa awk gi jumpa mak FF instead of spending time with her.

    Psl dewan tu pulak, maybe die nak the best, to make sure you get the wedding u deserve (but not what you want tho). Maybe u should talk to her, like really2 talk to her about how u want ur wedding to be. Insyallah she'll give in.

    Best of luck!

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  14. actually, kat umah aku ni pun..ade gak makhluk yg aku tak leh nak "masyuk" btol ngn care life die. haha!!psiko giler:P

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  15. sarah: sarah, thanks for the advice! =D
    well..i did tell that i wanted to do it at home. but thing is, they want to save cost...so, i just agreed.
    it's ok i guess..coz there will be a very small session at home too.
    I really wanted to have a very nice reception at home..but if it's not meant to be..well...
    In the end, getting married to FF is the most important thing. =)

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  16. Eh I tot buat kat rumah lagi save cost? ah well. Agree with u, getting married to the one u love is more important :)
    Best of luck!

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  17. sarah: according to my mum, skrg buat kat rumah lg mahal. coz cost the canopy tu skrg dh lagi mahal drp kat dewan...

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